I’ve been feeling inundated with bad news the past couple of days. First Haiti- and a rekindled awareness of the devastation there. Then long term relationships splitting, death, and suicide. It’s everywhere. I look at the news and it’s all negative. It feels like hope has been lost, I feel like my hope is being threatened and attacked.
Last night a friend almost committed suicide. It caught me completely off guard because things had been going well I thought, but apparently not. She’s better now and getting help. Then I read that another “celebrity” (or in this case celebrity’s child) has committed suicide- two in the past week. There are house fires claiming lives, and completely pointless gun deaths being reported daily. We are in the midst of a war that whether justified or not is claiming thousands of innocent lives in the process.
Good things are happening too. I have friends and relatives who have just given birth or just announced a baby on the way. My cousin got engaged. People are giving time and money to help Haiti.
Somehow, somewhere, the bad took over the good. The joy of the good isn’t enough to overcome the despair of the bad. It’s hard to know where to go from here.
At the end of the day I am choosing to trust that God will show me the joy. That he will keep hope alive no matter how much the bad seems to be suffocating the good.
Pondering Wanderer 